The Best At What I Do

First the one hundred words - exactly - and then a confession.

I am a great cocksucker because I am so eager to please and such a total whore. At first I pleasure the dildo with almost as much fervor as I would a delicious pussy. Once I really get into it and am overcome with slutty desire then I start worshipping it with total lust and desperation like the nastiest whore. I lick and suck and kiss and lap and slurp and tongue like a dirty slut hungry for cock. I start slow and lose myself to wild abandon to let the mistress know just how much I crave sucking cock.

I was about to say how wrong it was to only punish sluts for cumming with a mere fifteen swats when other sluts are in agony going day after day without cumming but then I had my own accident. I had rubbed my cock without cumming and got out my new dildo to start my cocksucking. I was just lightly touching my cock as I started lapping at the dildo. Right as I was licking the balls of the dildo for the first time I lost control. My other dildos did not have balls and it must have been the humiliation of doing something so incredibly nasty that set me off. The cumming did not really feel that good and I was a bit unhappy with myself for making the mistake and sort of wasting two weeks of chastity.

I gave myself the fifteen swats for that and then another 30 or so because I was not sure how many times I touched my cock or whether the required three times of rubbing it until I could barely hold back counted.


Brandi

Sissy Toes

When I am a sissy I am somewhere in between the types described by Akasha and Miss Blue. Although I do have more than a few panties and other stuff I only use them when I am being made to. It is extremely exciting to have to endure the humiliation of being a sissy for a woman - especially because it is such a submissive act for me. In my everyday life I am very much a regular guy. Having to wear some girly pink panties or paint my toenails really pushes my humiliation buttons. The more I surrender the hotter I get.

Painting my toenails is really effective for a couple reasons. Since the polish takes some time and effort to remove having to wear it makes me feel somewhat entrapped - especially when I am out of the house. I could sneak into a bathroom and remove a pair of panties but I cannot do anything about toenail polish without the remover. Nail polish also feels like more of a shameful step than just panties. Panties are very kinky but the nails can only be the mark of a sissy. I felt very ashamed and owned walking around with my toenails painted like that.


Brandi

Clamped And Paddled

So far I have been able to keep myself from cumming without permission but I decided I would be as much a whore for extra credit as I am for other things and so I gave myself about thirty or forty swats with the paddle. I did it as hard as I could but the angle does limit the power I can put into the swings. My hardest swings still did sting pretty badly and I doubt I could take more than that very easily. The word SLUT on the paddle did not show up too well - I think I was able to spot it faintly in the mirror in one place just after I was done.



I really really hate the pain of nipple torture and I had no idea what was awaiting me with the new pair of clover clamps I had purchased with the other items for the training. The clover clamps grabbed onto my nipples very well - my regular clamps often slip off after a while. There was an immediate stinging pain that was quite intense but at least it was something I could suffer through. I had been worried since the clover clamps are so big that the pain would be just too much.

That stinging pain stayed at a pretty constant level throughout the twenty minutes I had them on. With the other clamps I have the pain tends to fade a bit. It was hard to make it through the time and the clock did not seem to move very quickly. I rubbed my aching cock to take my mind off the pain as much as I could but that only reduced it a little and I did have to stop so I would not cum.

When I took the clover clamps off the pain was more intense than it had been with other clamps. I was taking deep panting breaths trying to stand the pain. It was even worse knowing that I still had to take the clamps off my other nipple. Not only did that hurt extremely bad but my nipples and the area around them were sore for quite some time. I could even still feel it the next day.

Brandi

Back To Chastity

Until a week ago my experience with chastity had been limited to having to hold myself back on my own - something that I have not always been successful at. I love to cum and it only takes a few days without that for me to get uncontrollably hot. Before a year ago I would be in chastity for just a few days at a time at most and then for these trainings I had to go a week or two several times which drove me completely insane and put me on the verge of total desperation.

The third and fourth day is always the worst - I ache very badly pretty much all day and it is hard for me to concentrate on anything else at times. Any pressure at all to my cock is pure torture. After that it begins to fade a bit although there are several periods of intense aching every day and I can feel the desperate urge in the back of my mind. I try not to think about sexual things but that is a lot easier said than done.

A week ago I finally got the cb-6000 and put it to use. When I mentioned it to Akasha she suggested I lock my cock up for a week. I have worn it pretty much all the time since then except for when I sleep and go to work. I am not ready to sleep in it just yet since I have heard that it is difficult to get used to and I am a little leery about bringing anything kinky to work. I would never play with my cock there anyway so I do not have to worry about cheating.

I thought that being in the cb-6000 would be a more intense version of regular chastity but I was wrong - It is an extremely more intense version. The aching is incredible. It comes sooner and the intensity is greater and it does not seem to fade anywhere near as much. I want to cum so damn badly when I wear the device and I probably would have given in several times if it were not for the fact that I cannot get to my cock. I made getting the key a little tricky and it does take a while to get the cb-6000 off so no matter how desperate I get I have time to remind myself that I must obey. Of course there may be a point where the desperation is too great which is why the ideal is for the domme to have the key.

What may be the most interesting part of the experience is that as my desperation to cum builds up so does my desire to submit. I have such an urge to please and obey and serve a woman. It is like I can instantly go further than I thought I could. One example is that while I have been having a lot of cuckold fantasies recently and have played a pretend version of it before I really did not think I could ever do it for real. With the cb-6000 on I suddenly feel that I can. I want to submit so badly and so intensely that I would endure that level of torment for a woman.

Considering how crazy and desperate a week of the cb-6000 chastity has made me - many many times each day all I could think about was how badly I was aching and how I would do anything to cum and then I thought of those anythings I would do - I really hope that Akasha and Miss Blue do not intend to deny cumming for the entire training. I was driven to complete desperation in just a week - reduced to a whimpering moaning whore willing to do just about anything for release - I cannot imagine I could survive much longer tham that.

Here are some pictures of my cock in the cb-6000:

Having to rub my cock and not cum is definitely driving me crazy. I do not know if it is better or worse than not being allowed to touch my cock at all. Not touching it creates the additional urge to touch it but getting to rub it increases the desperation of not being able to cum. I also have to be careful not to go too far and make a mistake because it is very important that I do every last thing I can to obey and then some. That is the point of doing this and submission in general - no matter how maddeningly desperate I become.

When I was ordering the inflatable dildo it did not sound like it was too big but when I got it the dildo was much larger than I expected. Just getting it into my hole would be difficult and then it would get bigger. I have no idea what that would feel like but I know that I am going to have to find out. The unknown aspect makes it pretty daunting as does the knowledge that I am being pushed yet another step into being an even bigger whore.


Brandi