Until a week ago my experience with chastity had been limited to having to hold myself back on my own - something that I have not always been successful at. I love to cum and it only takes a few days without that for me to get uncontrollably hot. Before a year ago I would be in chastity for just a few days at a time at most and then for these trainings I had to go a week or two several times which drove me completely insane and put me on the verge of total desperation.
The third and fourth day is always the worst - I ache very badly pretty much all day and it is hard for me to concentrate on anything else at times. Any pressure at all to my cock is pure torture. After that it begins to fade a bit although there are several periods of intense aching every day and I can feel the desperate urge in the back of my mind. I try not to think about sexual things but that is a lot easier said than done.
A week ago I finally got the cb-6000 and put it to use. When I mentioned it to Akasha she suggested I lock my cock up for a week. I have worn it pretty much all the time since then except for when I sleep and go to work. I am not ready to sleep in it just yet since I have heard that it is difficult to get used to and I am a little leery about bringing anything kinky to work. I would never play with my cock there anyway so I do not have to worry about cheating.
I thought that being in the cb-6000 would be a more intense version of regular chastity but I was wrong - It is an extremely more intense version. The aching is incredible. It comes sooner and the intensity is greater and it does not seem to fade anywhere near as much. I want to cum so damn badly when I wear the device and I probably would have given in several times if it were not for the fact that I cannot get to my cock. I made getting the key a little tricky and it does take a while to get the cb-6000 off so no matter how desperate I get I have time to remind myself that I must obey. Of course there may be a point where the desperation is too great which is why the ideal is for the domme to have the key.
What may be the most interesting part of the experience is that as my desperation to cum builds up so does my desire to submit. I have such an urge to please and obey and serve a woman. It is like I can instantly go further than I thought I could. One example is that while I have been having a lot of cuckold fantasies recently and have played a pretend version of it before I really did not think I could ever do it for real. With the cb-6000 on I suddenly feel that I can. I want to submit so badly and so intensely that I would endure that level of torment for a woman.
The third and fourth day is always the worst - I ache very badly pretty much all day and it is hard for me to concentrate on anything else at times. Any pressure at all to my cock is pure torture. After that it begins to fade a bit although there are several periods of intense aching every day and I can feel the desperate urge in the back of my mind. I try not to think about sexual things but that is a lot easier said than done.
A week ago I finally got the cb-6000 and put it to use. When I mentioned it to Akasha she suggested I lock my cock up for a week. I have worn it pretty much all the time since then except for when I sleep and go to work. I am not ready to sleep in it just yet since I have heard that it is difficult to get used to and I am a little leery about bringing anything kinky to work. I would never play with my cock there anyway so I do not have to worry about cheating.
I thought that being in the cb-6000 would be a more intense version of regular chastity but I was wrong - It is an extremely more intense version. The aching is incredible. It comes sooner and the intensity is greater and it does not seem to fade anywhere near as much. I want to cum so damn badly when I wear the device and I probably would have given in several times if it were not for the fact that I cannot get to my cock. I made getting the key a little tricky and it does take a while to get the cb-6000 off so no matter how desperate I get I have time to remind myself that I must obey. Of course there may be a point where the desperation is too great which is why the ideal is for the domme to have the key.
What may be the most interesting part of the experience is that as my desperation to cum builds up so does my desire to submit. I have such an urge to please and obey and serve a woman. It is like I can instantly go further than I thought I could. One example is that while I have been having a lot of cuckold fantasies recently and have played a pretend version of it before I really did not think I could ever do it for real. With the cb-6000 on I suddenly feel that I can. I want to submit so badly and so intensely that I would endure that level of torment for a woman.
Considering how crazy and desperate a week of the cb-6000 chastity has made me - many many times each day all I could think about was how badly I was aching and how I would do anything to cum and then I thought of those anythings I would do - I really hope that Akasha and Miss Blue do not intend to deny cumming for the entire training. I was driven to complete desperation in just a week - reduced to a whimpering moaning whore willing to do just about anything for release - I cannot imagine I could survive much longer tham that.
Here are some pictures of my cock in the cb-6000:
Having to rub my cock and not cum is definitely driving me crazy. I do not know if it is better or worse than not being allowed to touch my cock at all. Not touching it creates the additional urge to touch it but getting to rub it increases the desperation of not being able to cum. I also have to be careful not to go too far and make a mistake because it is very important that I do every last thing I can to obey and then some. That is the point of doing this and submission in general - no matter how maddeningly desperate I become.
When I was ordering the inflatable dildo it did not sound like it was too big but when I got it the dildo was much larger than I expected. Just getting it into my hole would be difficult and then it would get bigger. I have no idea what that would feel like but I know that I am going to have to find out. The unknown aspect makes it pretty daunting as does the knowledge that I am being pushed yet another step into being an even bigger whore.
Brandi
2 comments:
Fantastic post, brandi! And the pictures are just oo sweet for words. I think we may need to post a link to your blog on the home page. Give the other sluts something to aspire to!
Where is your report on lesson two? Am I missing it? I did get your voice mail -- so soft spoken for such a whore!! Where did you go??
Mistress Akasha
PS: You better be in the chat on Sunday!
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